nothing personal

sometimes that's the way it is, life with humans, that is... the superficiality maintained by the walls built by fears keep the sharing quite impersonal for so many, even people who live together... and my live-in partner is way too human sometimes as she hides behind her walls to avoid changing her self-destructive habits (no judgment, after all, do you know anybody who doesn't have some?)... it is still so very frustrating when those habits affect me, or effect me, in fact, or in fect, even... after all, who wants an infection... don't just sit there scratching your head (or are your eyes wide or is your mouth hanging open or did you just leave wondering why you came, not that i am asking), live your life and if you really want to know about this life i loosely call mine, well, you could try asking and see if i get any more specific if i answer questions... all this could simply be an experiment in internet communication, but not to mock or play with your head, simply to see what might happen... could even be personal, but stay in the positive zone cuz there is no offense intended (so don't make any, m'ok?)... challenging week as success depends on the communication from others and all that comes is silent... patience is not very useful when deadlines are involved... kind of like brakes are not very useful after the car rolls off the cliff... nothing personal, just the way it is...