feeling poorly

she said she'd be home at eight and he was feeling poorly, food poisoning, so he told her and she said she would bring home something, but she went out drinking and didn't come home... he didn't tell her how scared he was because she panics about death or losing him because she depends on him... without him she'd have to move in wIth someone else who would let her live with them for free... he wonders what to do... she just keeps repeating the same mistakes... she blames depression and add and anxiety and more and she sees her doctors and talks and takes meds, though not always as the doctors prescribe them, and she does not change her choices... she still splurges on drinking when the right person asks because she so wants to be loved and keeps hoping someone will fall in love with her but she is not even close to being ready for a relationship other than a parent child... she is way too dependent... financial irresponsibility is too extreme... she stays with him because he pays the bills and keeps her from feeling completely alone, but she does not want a relationship with him... he stays for the little financial support she does give but more, because he has emotionally adopted her and does not want her to have to move back in with her parents who really do not have the income to support her... meanwhile, he sits at home waiting, feeling poorly, because she said she'd be home... the next morning the dog wakes him with the sun and he sees she sent a message that she was drunk and staying on the couch of someone she wants to love... she woke snippy and defensive, hung over, and feeling bad as she remembered telling him she would bring something home last night because he was feeling poorly...