if anyone ever finds this

he wonders if he is violating her privacy writing all this and posting it on the web, but she doesn't read any of his other blogs or writings and nobody pays attention to him, so he posts these entries anyway because he dreams that someone will find him and care about him someday... he feels like nobody ever really cared to take the time to get to know him, so he writes in the hope that someone will care someday... he does not want her to be upset if she ever finds these words, he just needs to release his thoughts and feeling somehow and if he doesn't share them out here on the web, how will he ever be found...