betrayal returns

pondering betrayal a while back he did not think he would find it so close to him again, but it suddenly drove a spike through him once again as he discovered, quite by accident, that she had stolen thousands of dollars from him over the past year... even as he was paying all of the bills for the place they lived, even as he paid for most of the food they ate, even as he paid thousands for her dog's care, even as he gave her money and bought her so many things she needed, she stole thousands more without telling him... they did not realize just how serious her spending addiction was and now, he wonders if she does... he wonders if she will find the help she needs to stop... he wonders if he can trust her again... he wonders how to continue living with her without locking off part of the space for himself, for his things, for his comfort... he must remember he can't leave his wallet around and he must remember to count his money carefully each day... it hurts to be so betrayed again... it hurts... it hurts to be so alone again... it hurts...