other voices, other choices

she dreams of what life would be like if she did not give in to peer pressure, if she let her heart rise above the conformity and social norms to follow the love she felt, the magic moments that made perfection seem possible, the wonder and excitement of bringing the unconditional trust of youth into the physical world of sensuality casting off all inhibitions and judgments others would present as obstacles to bliss to actualize true love... as she gazes out on her life from her comfortable backyard veranda with her children splashing in the pool and her husband snoring on the chaise, she wonders what if... and where he is now...