she ignores so well

she is just so good at ignoring things (or pretending she does) that she appears unaware that he has stopped doing anything other than going to work, playing softball, and sitting home... that is the financial decision he has made because any other decision would lead to debt... she has not learned that self-discipline yet in her life, so she continues to incur debt... and she fills her life with business and activities working long hours with solitary pauses filled by social media, never without her cell phone connecting her to the world out there, the easier world to deal with because there is no responsibility beyond checking in and pushing a few buttons, posting some picture and typing some words, no actual doing anything like living up to the nice words and ideals... even when at social events, her eyes and fingers and attention is in the phone more than anywhere else... somewhere inside she knows what she does, but she is afraid to do anything else and she'd rather lament over failed relationships and a disorganized life than actually focus on being in the moments and changing habits that dig her into chaos and isolation and debt... she just needs to get on the right meds, she says... she ignores the reality that behavior and thinking errors and habits are not changed by meds and it is the behavior and thinking errors and habits that create the anxiety and confusion and self-loathing that leads her to think meds are the answer... one more thinking error piled on all the others... and she ignores so well, she doesn't seem to see how it affects him as they share living space and expenses with her contributing nothing most months and he stretched past his limits slowly sinking toward the debt hole himself...